hari

hari ku indah 3-4 hari kebelakangan ini.

hari ini, tidak lagi.

aku yang bersalah memaksa dia ke sini?

dia berjanji pada aku,

salah aku menuntut janji agar dikota?

memang salah aku.

aku minta maaf.

macam biasa, aku masih akan berdiri di sini.

down

im feeling seriously, shitly, assly down right now.

fuckk.

conflict after conflict.

i dont know how to trust others anymore.

i dont know what to believe.

im afraid of other people's words.

shit. shit. shit.

i will try to shut my mouth,

and pretend not to know whats happening around me.

im sorry, once u make me feel like shit,

u will always be shit.

shit! im seriously sincere to befriend anyone,

no jealousy, no at all!

but what did people do to me?

kenapa mesti ada orang yang dengki dengan orang lain?

kita semua ada rezeki masing-masing,

kenapa mesti nak menjatuhkan yang lain?

kenapa mesti dengki?

aku tak faham.

aku minta maaf kalau aku yang salah.

tapi salahkah kalau aku cuma jujur berkawan dan ingin melindungi kawan.

maaf jika selepas ni aku ignore semua.

5.26AM

kagum bila membaca coret manusia-manusia penulis yang hebat tu.

ada yang kata,

banyak benda aku nak cerita tapi tak boleh.

aku tulis bila aku marah bukan bila aku gembira.

aku pun sama.

tak sangka ada yang sama dengan aku eh?

ada benda yang boleh diluahkan, ada yang tidak boleh,

bak bait Zahiril Adzim,

"tulisan itu bogel, ia menggambarkan siapa diri kita."

pada aku, bukan itu wadah utamanya.

hati setiap manusia perlu dijaga.

tak perlu kau jujur sangat-sangat bertulisan, hati lain terguris.

tetapi, bergantung pada kau,

apa kau rasa nak tulis, tulislah.

bingung,

menghelah nafas panjang.

4.03AM

i am editing this blog.

editing the layouts with help of my brother, Amir Anuar, credits to him.

i have no idea, what new blog title should i put?

give me some idea, if you are reading this. haha.

i had a great day today.

brought ibu to Seoul Garden with Asniera and Anne,

i am happy as i have long promised her that i will take her there.

she looks so happy.

thanks to Asniera and Anne to accompany us. :)

after that, met Ayong and Mirul in Singgah Selalu.

lepak-lepak, and the shift is continued with other friends,

Zack, Ayum and Ika.

Asniera? always with me. :)

we went to Danga Big Boutique.

i bought a vintage skirt and bought some shirts for Asniera as her birthday present.

then, we went to JB Bazaar, window shopping.

lastly, eat AGAIN at Dataran Bandaraya. haha.

back home at 2 in the morning.

as usual, i am missing him.

wherever i go in JB, i thought of him.

is he thinking about me?

i am not sure.

where is he?

few days without any infos.

sometimes, i remembered pakcik.

little time with him, i am just praying for his happiness.

i am not meant for him.

daniel, daniel, daniel.

i am so into you.

i cant forget u now, even for a blink of eye.

huhh...

happy time with him

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terlupa nak post.

i miss singapore.

pulang ke johor bahru mengingatkan aku pada singapura.

jarang ke singapura,

di hati, dekat. :)

I

hari-hari yang semakin sibuk.

piles of assignments.

tambahan coursemates yang annoying tahap gaban dalam dunia.

peribadi?

nadia single.

sebab?

rahsia.

we are just not meant for each other.

idh?

di sisi.

back with lots of difference.

kagum dengan dia.

sayangi dia.

till now, he's the one closest to my heart other than asniera.

hari ini, seulas ayat membuat aku berfikir.

'tidak sama cinta dan rasa ingin memiliki.'